Not something I've had to deal with

I have the best friends ever.  One of my best friends Lezlie-Anne came over to see me yesterday because I was having a hard time, and she came to console me.  Tears rolled down her face as she said "it's not something I have had to deal with."  You see, I miscarried on Sunday.  I am not afraid to say it, because I know that there are millions of women who go through the same thing.  It seems like it is almost one of those hush hush things that people don't share, perhaps because it is so emotionally draining, or because it feels embarrassing, but I don't feel that way.  I feel like my baby just isn't ready to come yet.  I feel so happy that we were able to get pregnant, and that I went through that experience, even though it was SO PAINFUL, and now I just want to sleep a lot....but I get what not a lot of people get to have, and that is empathy.  Empathy has helped me serve my brothers and sister here on earth better than anything.  I am grateful.

I didn't want this to be a long one, because frankly, I am really really tired, and silly me, I am crying as I write this.  But I wanted the world to know, that it doesn't matter how hard things are, God has strengthened me through so much this year. I stand all amazed at the love he shows me every day.  It is so easy to feel far away from God, but the truth is, he's never far away.  He's in my scriptures that are just on the shelf over there, he's in the words of the prophets that are just a click away, I can search them as I am writing this on the computer, and he is just right there, waiting for me to get to my knees and talk to him.  It really is amazing.  I know the end is close, and I just hope that I go and seek him, and know him before he comes, so that I will recognize him.  Can you imagine the joy?  I try to, but it seems beyond anything I know.  I love the gospel of Jesus Christ.  There is no other way but through Him.